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1 of many Life & Wisdom designs... Below is Ms.Badu with the "love is life" tee.

OK! So this post has been long overdue indeed, lol. Better late than never right?! Right!

The talented Niko Austriaco... aka the bf... has his own clothing line which I think is dopeness. It's called "Life & Wisdom" and he has some nice ass pieces that y'all must check out. He has a blogspot but doesn't update it very often, booo him. Anywho, its www.nikoaustriaco.blogspot.com & www.lifeandwisdomclothing.blogspot.com. I'm not going to put up any more info as y'all can check it out yourself.

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Moment of Truth

So i bbmed the bf yesterday morning and said "Guru from GangStarr died" I know if he was in front of me i woulda seen tears drop, cause anyone can point out to good music which involves a good artist. And i was just kidding about him crying, actually i really don't know cause he really would for a true hip hop artist. & I hope he's not reading this. Anywho, his friend at work said "why can't souljah boy die or something" ... on the real though... I mean nobody is hoping bad on anyone, but why must the good artists die, like shit!!!

Pay respect where respect is due... Guru was fighting Cancer for a bit but couldn't beat it. Very sad. R.I.P.

Analyze this; Analyze that

For the past couple of days I've been analyzing things that exist in my life, more so the people. If you take me back to 4 days ago... i had a total diff mentality, but when i sit here now and just think back on all the bullshit... i realize how I've lost trust in people, specific people of course. I don't give a shit about loyalty anymore, cause there are actually people out there who don't appreciate it, so why give an F. The patience I've been holding on to just happened to be thrown out the window. The apologies don't mean shit anymore cause they've been used so often and outta proportion. The bitterness is starting to appear slowly and i catch myself fading. I want out from that world where people lie, bullshit you, fuck you over, take you for granted, don't appreciate the better things and only think about themselves. From time to time you experience these things, it's bound to happen and you can't avoid them... but... there's a line that you eventually draw, that line has been drawn!

To sum up Life in 3 words: It Goes On

Our deepest fear...

"... is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are all powerful beyond measures.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented fabulous?"
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Why relationships suffer...

... not in a particular order!

- Lack of Communicating! Learn how to communicate the right way with the person you're with. Throw the negative comments in the trash before you can have an open communication.

- Burnout! The honeymoon period doesn't last forever, although it is possible for some relationships to carry it on.

- Not compatible! They say opposites attract, but that's not always the case. It can surely get tiring to try to find similarities between each other.

- Lack of Commitment! It works two ways, you gotta give to receive. If you can't be committed, don't expect your partner to be.

- Unforgiving- It's hard to forgive, even harder to forget. But at some point or another, it has to be done. Comprises have to be made. Nobody is perfect.

- Bad feelings! Having those "gut" feelings and over analyzing into things. This never brings anything good out of a relationship. (I've been guilty of it)

- Pressure! Don't do it. Nobody likes to be forced or feel obligated.

- Jealousy! You should look at yourself in the mirror if you have been guilty of this before, it's quite UGLY.

- Lack of Understanding! If you can't understand each other on any levels, then you need to fix that asap.

- Silence within an argument! We all know what I'm talking about... that whole "I'm not gonna say shit to piss him/her off"... It doesn't work, it just angers the person even more. (Again... guilty)

- Abuse! In any format, whether it's verbal, physical, emotional or so on forth. It's not going to get anywhere if you are abusing your partner. How do you expect your relationship to be healthy if this is present in your relationship.

- Not sexually happy! This is a real issue. So try to find out what your partner likes and aim for it. Everyone loves to be pleased, don't hold back. It's important to have a healthy sexual relationship and connection between each other. "All work and no play makes jack a dull boy"

- "Curiosity" aka You are one nosy f#cker! Realllllly? No need in going through your bf/gf personal shit. Just because you're together does not give you the right to dig through their stuff. This is def lack of trust and isn't healthy.

- Lack of Trust! Why be with them if you can't trust them. There's a lot of reasons why people lose trust, or never even started to build that trust out of fear of getting hurt. But why be in that relationship if you can't trust them. That is such a waste of energy. How can you be with someone and be genuinely happy if you can't trust 'em.

I'm def not an expert at relationships, but this was my take just through my experience or others'. There's prob plenty more to add to the list but this was all i was able to come up with at the moment. Being in a relationship is no joke, it's almost like a full time job where you're always working over time. It has the good and the bad, the high and the lows... but it works for some and doesn't for others. The way i see it, just take it one day at a time. Love, accept, understand, cherish, forgive, trust and just be there for them and things should go smooth. Don't get me wrong, no relationship is perfect, it'll always be a roller coaster ride.

By far... the worst experience of my life...

The picture above pretty much explains the pain I've been bearing for over a week now. I had my wisdom teeth out last Mon, on my 9th day now. I feel like crap. I feel like no progress has been made concerning my recovery. I've missed a ton of school and work. Can barely even speak to my daughter cause it hurts to really talk. I was told it may take about a week, maybe even less.... well i say fuck my luck! Seriously, 9th day and no progress, wtf is that. So b.s. I've been a prisoner in my own home for a bit now, I've missed all the sunshine mother nature provided t.o with last week. I have been eating sickly food that i am sick of. My stomach is always growling due to eating such small portions because of this demon pain. I'm tired and just wanna be better and get to moving with things. I stay home and do jack shit all day. And NO it's not as fun as it sounds. I'm counting down to when i can finally get my life back on track.

I'm not tryna scare anyone off concerning getting the w-teeth out. I'm prob the rare cases who suffer this long from it. My girl had hers done 2 weeks prior to mine and right now she's kicking it in Florida. Some luck huh?!?!?

Anyhow, this is why I've been so m.i.a. Let's hope i can move along with this pain and recovery in another few days. See y'all shortly; I hope!

'Stab' it up.