Journey into the New World

She just sat there on the train wondering if the world she has known for this long was going to disappear. She wondered if there could even be a new world after the old one. How could it come to this? Had she been living in denial this whole time? She kept thinking of what she could possibly do next to fix this broken world she was living in, but the truth is it's not up to her. For the first time in her life she was not in charge of the plans that were laid ahead just for her. She knew it was make it or break it time and the clock was ticking. She did not want to run out time. When is the moment she finally knows? When is the moment she finally breathes? She felt that this wasn't fair but that this needed to happen. She hated the fact that she had little control over the situation, she always felt her strongest when she had to be strong for someone else. This time, she had to find that inner strength inside of herself to overcome this hunger strike, to overcome herself. She was always her own worst enemy, but she feels more and more like being her very own best friend instead. His sanity is her and her sanity is somewhere within herself. She's looking for it but that old enemy of hers keeps getting involved. There will be a moment when she will breathe again, a moment when food will taste so good again. A moment when sanity is hers again and she will finally be her best friend instead of her own enemy. So she takes a deep breath, gets off at her destination and tries to keep in mind that she will be alright. This ending is only the beginning of her journey into the new world. She just needed to find a way to open herself up to the universe so she can find her way.